If there's professions I don't trust more than anything, it's doctors and mechanics >:I

Especially mechanics. Spent enough money trying to avoid a third trip down there to the shop -.-;; I hope they're true to the whole "you're car has 8 months to live". if it goes any shorter, Imma be pissed.

Um, I know I've been gone, but there's not much light for my account here on Dev. I was thinking about leaving it to die so very slowly. But i got a number of acrylic paintings I would like to photograph and post, however, I need a better camera than what I have.

As for anime, I've still been trying to learn, but I simply can't seem to color anything right anymore. I wonder if when it comes to anime art, if you don't use it, you lose it.

Like art is a language.

=I

Maybe I'll put up something cool, one day, at a time, at a place that'd be my room, of something. though- I realized why most of any art I attempt to do is of a character I made. Because if i draw someone else's character, i feel like I'm putting it to shame As is the case.

Ah well.

Whats up people?

Just the usual trouble I get myself into...sort of anyway.


However, school is becoming more of an issue than I expected. Tomorrow instead of opening defying one of my teachers, I'm going to cushion myself by talking to her before hand, and ask her if we're on an understanding. She's been giving me bad looks for a few days now, and I won't have it.

As for my other classes, I'm already sick of dealing with the pompous idiots. Especially in my gym class, I'm stiff lipped in team sports, and I'm not gonna have any boy up in my space like they can get into my pants if they want. I've already done a good share of shoving and cursing to their faces, but it's getting on my last nerve.

My only comfort is AP chemistry and my class at the nearby college. I feel at home in chem, and generally pleased at the college. It hurts to go to school. I just wanna stay home and not feel any anger for awhile...

I'm at a constant tired, but at the same time restless. It's like a bad soup, I just can't eat it even if I were kinda hungry.

Maybe it's just a phase...maybe my whole last year of school won't be like this- I feel like that's high hoping though.

Well I've been back for a few days now. Just didn't get around to updating my Da journal.

Germany was amazing, in so many ways. I appreciate having me over there, and putting up with all my crap and I hope her and her mother realize how much I seriously appreciate them having me over. I feel in debt to them because they were just SOOO awesome. Got to see Dachau and got to hang out bunches with Ruka.

The view out of Ruka's window is really awesome. I'd take it over my window anyday lol.

It kind sucks being back in Florida, it feels like it never happened. Maybe I just had that much fun.

Been getting a lot of cool stuff, like L4D and TF2 and roogoo and some other stuff. I bought some art supplies for school and a neat art easel (been needing one of those actually)

I'm looking forward to this year at school being quick and hopefully less painful than last year. Seriously. I'm fully dreading going back to school in itself. It's like going back to jail for a little bit each day. Confusing, makes me rage, I could never describe how much i hate and dread going back to school.

Anyway, I'll let that go till I have to worry about it in two weeks. For now, I'm finishing a painting of the hills in the night over Germany, then I'm going to begin construction of a Dr. Steel Toy Soldier Robot. He'll be maybe 5-6 feet tall, depending on how tall I can stack him up and keep him standing. I've been collecting my materials. I hope to have them all by the end of this week. The only thing I fear is that he won't be able to stand up. But my dad might help me in it's construction. (It's for my mechanical project at school, I'm still going to do a mechanical drawing just in case the robot doesn't work.)

That's all I've got for now. I've been pondering opening commissions, but I'm gonna wait till I can figure out a better coloring technique. I feel I'm close, but not quite. I want to sharpen my anatomy first and I need a better technique for putting in backgrounds. Now that My gallery is cleaned up of all my old crap (really crappy crap)Sometime later when i get time i'm going to work on some images of other characters and such. I just hope I can get in more views on page and such when I start opening for commissions in the much later future.

That's all I've got for now.

Made it to Germany safely!! Been hanging out with and we've been having a lot of fun killing zombies and going places and stuff <3

Sometime soon if I get some free time, I'm gonna be cleaning out a lot of my old stuff in my gallery. Pretty much just gonna leave what I think is half decent up. The rest of it gets to sit and rot somewhere on my computer lol. I keep everything, but I'm only going to be using my gallery for stuff that is well, at least decent. Instead of just putting anything I just happen to scribble up.

Had some nice sushi today <3 Might put up some pictures. Perhaps when I get back to the states I'll put up a subscription to deviant art after I clean up my gallery. Gonna start kicking things into gear for once with D.A. if I ever want to get closer to my goal as a digital artist. Can't have a lame gallery like that lol xD

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Done some cleaning. Managed to get rid of a lot, but I'm gonna finish it up tomorrow. If i deleted something you really liked, send me a pm and I'll see what I can do. I'm getting rid of a lot =/

Just one more week till I head out to Germany to visit

I keep getting asked if I'm excited, but really, I don't know what I feel like lol. I just feel like well, me =O I know I'm accomplishing a goal, and I know it's gonna be, (well holy shit first time flying in an airplane ever) and I dunno, all sorts of cool, but I don't feel any different. Like I'm setting a standard for myself =]

Anyway, I'll keep it short XD
Just got contacts, and taking them out for the first time I'm on my made me wanna cry lol (I'm such a big baby sometimes LOL)
Still trying to muster the strength to get my hair cut lol
And been seriously procrastinating on AP homework XD

I wish I had a psp to play on the plane =I

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Ohhh kay, forget open canvas. I RLY tired to make that program work with me. But seriously, everything just looks better on Sai. I just wish my trial didn't run out XDD