I still have a lot of learning to do about representing a company. I had foolishly hoped I could join the staff of the people I am mapping and making tilesheets for, and not have to deal with the responsibility, but I'm glad to have realized what it is I need to do as well. A job isn't all about SOLELY just working. Even if all "I" really want to do is get work done, if there's a community benefiting from my work, then, well I guess I have to stand for some representation whether I like it or not.

I'll be honest, I'm not impressed with the community. The mass majority of them are the kind of people I hold a high distaste for, for a number of reasons. But I could never be like the ceo and say I hate them all, and then later try to say i love them all. I'm simply "not impressed". But even with that, professionalism is something I know how to do, I just forgot that I now had that responsibility.

But ah well, ya live and learn.

In other news,
got my SAT scores back. I'm going to wait for the full summary, but chances are I'll need to take it again sometime soon. I've got a lot of major testing to get done actually for next year. But that'll come later.

I've nearly got my Kururu cosplay complete. I need to get some fake glasses from the dollar store, a solid yellow shirt (I want to get a turtle neck if I can), and I have to buy new headphones since my old ones just broke, those and a wig (I lost my bid on ebay, so I guess i gotta try again. I hate items that are bid only) Other than that, I have the jeans, the lab coat is in the making officially now, the hat, and the yellow flip flops so it's all good.

The only other cosplay I'm doing after that is Scout from Team Fortress 2, and I want to go back and try to finish my Cisque cosplay from Elemental Gelade. Scout is a fairly simple cosplay. I'd be a red scout too 8D! Cisque is a lot more difficult though.

I'm going to look into getting a subscription, but I'm still debating whether it would make my experiences on Deviantart any different than they are now.

My Giroro plushie arrived that :IconRutares: got me for my birthday. He has a bow in his hair, and I can't seem to put him down since I pulled him out of the package. I felt like I was losing something precious when I left him on my desk when I had to go to work. He's so soft OAO I could just sit at my desk and pet him for forever <3 I'm so happy~~ ILmahgiroro~ With my Sora and Giroro plushies, and my NOFX shirt, my life is complete <3

Things at home have been looking up lately, which is a plus~

And Now I've officially got less than a month before I take my flight to Germany to see Rutares. I'm still really nervous because my father still won't tell me wtf is up with the baggage and what I'm gonna have to do. I don't think he realizes that it really upsets me that he won't talk to me, I'm really scared to take this flight, but I'm gonna do it anyway, and the fact that neither of them even care to talk to or meet the person I'm going to go see just shows me that they really don't care. Even if they trust me fully about this trip, they should still see for themselves who it is I'm about to go spend two weeks with in a whole other country, they have no other reason not to. (The only one that's flipping out is my sister actually,)

At least Dr. Roca is going to take me to the local airport to take me on a tour so I can be familiar with a lot of things (like getting through customs and knowing everything I'll need to get onto the plane). I think I'm more afraid that I'll lose my baggage. Because of this, I'm only taking one carry on and one big bag. The less I need to get checked out, the better.

I just want a walk-through of this whole traveling thing, not just little tips like "chew gum when your up in the plane" or "wear shoes that are easy to take off". I know all that, but that's not going to help me if something goes wrong. I want to know what to do should something happen.

I see no problem in obeying rule #34 at ALL. A lot of things I didn't realize existed, and that there actually was pr0n of it. O_O Then I realized, I didn't really care anymore LOL